It's a Girl!

St Thomas's Hospital for our 20 week scan.

I couldn't sleep at all the night before, a mixture of fear and excitement. I kept think, what if there's something wrong with the baby?. . .

What if there's no heart beat?

 what if there is no baby? 

what if?

what if?

what if?

I was up at 6am, our appointment wasn't until 10am

I have been so careful and have prayed so hard these past 20 weeks that my baby is well. 

I use to hold my stomach and begged my baby to live, I was so scared of loosing this baby I wanted so much.

I had a  bit of a cry before we left the house. Nyron reassured me all would be OK.

We took the bus{12} to St Thomas's, because of parking. I was pretty much silent, I was praying so hard that all was OK, and that I would be blessed with a little girl.

I so much wanted a little girl.

I have two younger cousin who have recently had children, both boys. My sister in law was also pregnant, 4 weeks ahead of me and was expecting a boy too. So I was thinking I must be having the girl, Please let it be  a girl.

We finally arrived at the Hospital and made our way in.

We sat in the waiting room what seemed like forever, Nyron & I were holding hands so tightly. Both very excited at seeing our baby for the first time.

After an hour or so long wait we were finally taken for the scan.

I lay on the bed and Nyron sat along side me. There was a large screen on the wall just below the bed.

The lady who did the scan proceeded to put the gel on. I was so nervous at this point. My heart was beating so fast, I held onto Nyron's hand. The sonographer asked me to look straight ahead at the screen. I told her I couldn't, I was too scared that something was wrong and I didn't want to see it.

She then put the hand held gizmo over my stomach, I just lay still trying to breath.

Next thing I heard was "Rass!" in true Jamaican style from Nyron. I turned and looked at the screen, there was my baby, Bouncing around. Tears filled my eyes, I couldn't believe what I was seeing. I was amazing. My baby is moving around, I thought to myself, "why can't I feel that" I tried to, but not yet.

Nyron looked so shocked, we both couldn't believe what we were seeing, our baby.

We kept smiling at one another, big cheesy grins.

We were so happy. The sosnographer did all the necessary checks for a few minutes. We just sat there mesmerised and amazed glued to the screen. She then said all looked fine but I need to be tested for Down syndrome, that again caused me to panic.

I went to have the blood test and then waited for a while once again in the waiting area.