Finding out

My name is Eva . And I am 30 years old, Married  to Nyron for 2 years. Following a very painful traumatic miscarriage in July 2008 today I found out I'm pregnant again. After only 6 months trying so hard to fall pregnant it happened. I never thought I could or would have any children, after my miscarriage I was convinced something was wrong with me. I made the GP give me a load of test to make sure all was OK. Blood tests, scans you name it I had it done. I even began testing Nyron! at home, found a website that sold kits to test sperm count. Bless him, he tested himself without any complaints. Always Love you for that. Everything came back normal for both of us, so there was no reason why I shouldn't fall pregnant. I started using Ovulation kits to monitor when I would be most fertile. That began to make me sightly obsessed. After a few months of any luck I gave up on the kits and thought if its meant to be its meant to be. 
My last pregnancy was a complete and utter shock, Nyron and I were going through some bad times and not getting on too well at all, so a baby just was not good timing. Maybe that was God's way of telling me that I don't know.
Nyron knew I was trying to get pregnant again, I never hid it from him. I would tell me that we should wait and carry on working on our relationship, but would be happy if God willing I was to be blessed once again with a baby I so wanted more than anything.




Am I ready for this?  Well… I’ve wanted it for long enough. I guess I’ll become ready.The last few days I have been really tired, falling asleep really early.
Could it be?  . . .
All day I have been thinking should I do a pregnancy test? No I can't be, can I? I wanted to do the test when Nyron was home. We went food shopping at Asda, I told Ny that I would do a pregnancy test when we got home, {I had a whole lot of test at home} But didn't believe I could be again.
It was just before midnight, I grabbed the test and went into the bathroom. As I peeded on that stick I prayed, "please please let it be" After a few seconds the pink was strong and I knew. I am pregnant! 
I ran into the front room and told Nyron, he was happy but still worried about out relationship. I didn't care 1 bit, I knew we would be fine.
I went into the bedroom as I wanted to cry, I held my stomach so tight and said hello to my baby. Told her I loved her. I thanked God for answering my prays, and oh did I pray so hard for this moment again. 
I feel so blessed. 


Life is going to be very different from now on.